Mar 31, 2013 09:44 AM
It’s been three years now; the blink of a eye yet a lifetime it seems. Many things have changed and many stayed the same. I can look at your picture these days without shedding a tear, though I still feel the pain inside, I don’t show it as much as I used too. Yes, despite a new love in my life, yes... love, I have found love again... I still miss you, I miss your laughter, your wit, your grin.
I do not demean my new love, for she also knows the sorrow of loss and understands at the deepest level. My new love is good, right and proper. It somehow feels “guided” by a gentle hand... I wonder who that could be?
The children still feel the repercussions of loss, even to this day. No one can replace you, you will always be their Mum. My heart aches at their pain knowing I can’t assuage their loss or fill the gap left. I try to make their lives easy and carefree but not always with success. That is my cross. D xxxxx